Wed.nes.day.

I weighed 212 today.  I really want to be under 200, but it seems so hard.  The weight-watchers online renewed itself, so I think between me and this blog only, I'll try again.  Again.1ce.More.

I am trying to copy the book of I John.  I need to be "in the light."  I am struggling to be "involved" in the body of Christ.

I watched all of  Mr. President Obama's speech last night.  I am so confused.  He hates us right?  It didn't sound like it.  I've heard is speeches before, this was so different.  It was the tone of someone who loves his country.  That is not the impression I have formed from previous comments.  He said we need to trust each other.  I may have to have intensive therapy to ever trust a Democrat.  I am confident (to borrow a saying I've heard all my life) that if I was on-fire (a white, christian conservative) Mr. President Obama would not even spit on me.

This morning I knew that what we are experiencing together at the office as a family is a new stage of growth.  We are growing into what comes next.  Vada has been absorbing the knowledge of our small business and now Owen is also.  It is a trial for them to learn it, but this is my hope for exit.  Someone will see what I've seen and will take it forward.  We will work and keep supporting each other.  This family business will work.  Maybe I'm a little glad we didn't sell last year.

January 19, 2012 - This is the day...

I know we should...

Let go and let God

He did make this day, so we should rejoice in it

I should "don't worry, be happy."

But it is auction day and I don't like it.  I have to wait on people to show up and do what they are supposed to do.  They are by definition already past defaulting on their responsibility.  Bottom line, I don't like drawing the hard line.  This may explain why I have some of my delinquencies...I'm a noodle-spined landlord.