Again Once More

Wed.nes.day.

2012-01-25T05:07:00.000-08:00

I weighed 212 today. I really want to be under 200, but it seems so hard. The weight-watchers online renewed itself, so I think between me and this blog only, I'll try again. Again.1ce.More.

I am trying to copy the book of I John. I need to be "in the light." I am struggling to be "involved" in the body of Christ.

I watched all of Mr. President Obama's speech last night. I am so confused. He hates us right? It didn't sound like it. I've heard is speeches before, this was so different. It was the tone of someone who loves his country. That is not the impression I have formed from previous comments. He said we need to trust each other. I may have to have intensive therapy to ever trust a Democrat. I am confident (to borrow a saying I've heard all my life) that if I was on-fire (a white, christian conservative) Mr. President Obama would not even spit on me.

This morning I knew that what we are experiencing together at the office as a family is a new stage of growth. We are growing into what comes next. Vada has been absorbing the knowledge of our small business and now Owen is also. It is a trial for them to learn it, but this is my hope for exit. Someone will see what I've seen and will take it forward. We will work and keep supporting each other. This family business will work. Maybe I'm a little glad we didn't sell last year.

January 19, 2012 - This is the day...

2012-01-19T04:51:00.000-08:00

I know we should...

Let go and let God

He did make this day, so we should rejoice in it

I should "don't worry, be happy."

But it is auction day and I don't like it. I have to wait on people to show up and do what they are supposed to do. They are by definition already past defaulting on their responsibility. Bottom line, I don't like drawing the hard line. This may explain why I have some of my delinquencies...I'm a noodle-spined landlord.

Julianna Moore - Sarah Palin

2011-12-14T08:10:00.000-08:00

I am conservative. I have strong beliefs. It just hurts to read articles and comments from people, like Julianna Moore, who are beautiful, smart, successful and clearly, completely against me. I feel the hate. It is hard to watch a movie with an actress that would erase you completely if she could. The comments she made about her role as Sarah Palin and divisiveness was what I expected it would be, but I accepted the teased bait for the article, hoping it wouldn't be. The comments from the public that followed were typically vitriolic. Of course actors and actresses are entitled to opinions, but theirs carry more weight than the rest of ours. It is offensive that someone like Meryl Streep will play Margaret Thatcher. How can Ms. Thatcher be treated well by someone who openly admits to "being on the other side." Julianna Moore has "no respect" for Sarah Palin, yet these women will benefit from the accomplishments of people they disrespect and no doubt will perpetuate their dislike to others in subtle ways they represent these women in these films.

"The man with the microphone" has the power. The entertainment industry has exerted incredible influence over the society we live in. I don't believe it has been all negative, but many God-haters and America-haters have held sway. Our lives and nation has been altered forever by their representations and opinions and spin on people and events. Again Once More I am disappointed, but then, I am conservative, I have strong beliefs and I just can't see things the same way Ms. Moore and Ms. Streep do. Unfortunately they will negatively portray women who I can admire. I suppose the only positive in this is that I can still believe in spite of all this influence. Yes, they have power and influence, but not all-power and they are not the only influence in this country/world.

I am still here, but the store is still gone!

2011-12-01T13:28:00.001-08:00

I gave away alot, there is still a bank account so I can pay the most recent, but hopefully final bill.
We received the prop. tax bill for the store. It came yesterday and coincidently a lady from assessors office came by for information.v I asked her for help with finalizing this account and with changing the addresses on several BRMS bills. She was willing.

I totaled up all the property tax bill and for once, I have more money in savings than I needed for the tax bill, a first.
I am trying to diet. I took PlexiSlim with the Accelerator pill. I am excelerated all right. My mouth feels like I took a decongestant and I'm hot. Yesterday it felt like current running down my arms. I am a little more active, but the weight is not really coming off. I tried weight watchers, but I don't like being limited! Of course I need to be limited.

We're deleting the Again Once More Facebook...Ella Berry is relagated to Vada's spare bedroom.

All that really matters is being with God in the end. I really believe God's handling everything.

Asking Again Once More for HELP

2011-07-13T11:10:00.000-07:00

Dear Father in Heaven...I know you've listened to me so many times, but you've helped me, I am bold to ask for more. Help with my daughter Katy. I ask you to bless her with a close friendship to you. She is practically grown, but not completely...she is not thrilled with me...which is understandable. So I ask you to help me love her, hold her accountable, and not to ever stop bringing her before you...the HELPER that never fails.

Thanks for Gabriel...thanks for helping Vada with her delivery of such a fine son.

Please continue to be with Sharon...and please Father, may you satisfy her heart's desire for her daughters. Bless her with peace of mind and for the rest of us, heal her, so she can stay longer...in all things though, Let your will be done...

Bless Owen with wisdom to make his life choices...Be with Micah as he finishes his summer and returns to college. Please be with Callie and help her to be well. Thanks for the ball camp opportunity...watch over the girls as they travel and bring them home safe. Help us get through volleyball this year...

Forgive me for my sins...I won't list them here...too many and too embarrassing. Thank you for the gift of your Sons life to cover these offences. In his (Jesus) name I pray...Amen

Last Day in April

2011-04-30T14:29:00.000-07:00

This has been a very full month.

Today Callie won 1st in shot and discus in 2A regionals held in Tylertown MS.

I read an article about purposeful economic down-sizing...Can I do it? I have thought about it and attempted it, but I want to do it. Shed the excess that binds me...live close to God and fully in submission.

What can I let go of today? Clothes first...if I haven't worn it...I'll let it go to the auction unit for donation to Panama Missions. I will fill at least one box each day starting now.

I will read my Bible every day...I will resist the devil. Help me Lord.

smm

Flowers, Family, Arkansas, Birds and Jake - April 2011

2011-04-30T13:33:00.000-07:00

Once and For All Closing Again Once More

2011-04-30T12:59:00.001-07:00

April 27, 2011 was the last day. Windows are covered...everything is being packed and removed.

Re-thinking - no settled thought

2011-03-08T04:56:00.000-08:00

It is March...still thinking...can't figure it out. To be honest I've not been thinking too clearly. So...it's time to act and then tell my uncertain self that the decision was already made.

Sarah

paper windows sales tax

2011-01-06T18:58:00.000-08:00

We more than doubled our sales in Dec...of course we didn't make as much as I get for rent and I paid 400. to an employee, which was 1/2. The electric was $50...and I'm not even mentioning money spent on merchandise. We are def. in a hole...but will see.

Jim said 9 people stopped and looked in the window one day this week.. I paper the windows today and resolved to make a better plan...

This is going to work

Okay...I hope this is going to work.

Waffle City

2011-01-04T04:29:00.001-08:00

Of course I'm waffling...it is what I do! I don't want to stay closed so long. I don't want to quit, but I'm messing up at BRMS. I have found multiple mistakes from last week and I know it is caused by divided attention.

GET UP AT 5:30AM
READ THE BIBLE
WORK
EXERCISE
DO ONE THING AT TIME
PAY ATTENTION!!!

(no subject)

2010-12-30T09:21:00.001-08:00

This is the day...the plan is made. The shop was not a mistake! It was a learning experience...just like the two catches dropped in a bowl game recently by a stand-in punt receiver named McClanahan...he dropped two punts...helped the other team win...but although I can remember the dropper, I don't remember the team who won.

So I'm dropping the ball sort of...keep checking the website. We'll be back and we're really still here, "metamorphing" into something more appealing we hope.

Closing until we open "again once more"

2010-12-30T02:56:00.000-08:00

Ella dressed for New Year's Eve 2010

Such an adventure...such a learning experience. The possiblities remain, but I leapt before I looked and I've got to crawl out of the hole and look a bit before trying again.

Then there is basketball season. We are not really good at putting anything ahead of basketball and especially not a store opened on a whim.

What it accomplished:

I know many things I didn't know before, but primarily I know now that I don't know enough to start a retail store.

Vada and Charlie were trying to conceive for a while and I wanted Vada to have something else, a distraction from the fact that for about 6 months they had not conceived. It really wasn't that long, but I'm impulsive and impatient. Well it worked...we have a bun in the oven.

I found an extremely creative, Sonia Samms, who has transformed the appearance of the store.

So...here we go...we opened quick, we're closing after not quite two months open. And we are closing for 3 months. In April, I will try again. Although I may do an odd Saturday here and there as I have a chance + we are going to put more effort into offerings online.